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Oh great. So google has decided to upgrade the design for this as well. SO MUCH WHITE! Augh. Can`t say I`m thrilled. But maybe i`m just grumpy today. There are certain reasons to belive that. Anyway, Catastroika was a nice documentary, for those times when i really need to hit myself over the head with something depressing which is not technically related to something i have done. Which at times feels good. Who am i kidding, it feels good all of the time. Anything that involves focusingng on the woes and wrongs of others keep me at least somewhat above the point of drowning. Hey, my english is rapidly deteriorating here, not good. Okay, this new design wasn`t that bad. Liveable. So what to do then, i don`t know, go to town, go to the gym on friday, sleep away saturday and sunday as much as possible. Go to work on monday-friday and hope that turns out all right. Hit the town with family and friends next weekend. Hackbergen next tuesday. Roleplaying next wednesday. Concert next friday. Concert next saturday? Concert next sunday? Work the week after that. I`ll be really really broke for the next two weeks, but that is survivable, and deserved, considering how lazy i`ve been lately. Snap out of lazyness, go to gym, eat and drink right, do everything i should`ve done aeons ago but continually fail to. Keep the focus, remain clear. Re-establish enthusiasm for explorations of the ways and the works of humanity, that would be remarkable. And i probably will. Though it is difficult to juggle everything. Become better at 30/10 again. I need to be stricter with myself when it comes to forcing 30/10 in the afternoon/evening. And preferably the morning before work, but i`m just so horribly disinterested in actually being awake. That is problematic, i really need something that just kicks me up and out in the morning, because to actually be conscious during the day is something i have long lost my desire to. We shall see. Optimism should be functioning again by summer, hopefully.