Despair.

"So, tired of crashing yourself yet?"
"Yes, by and large, enough to get to a doctor this time."
"Well that ain`t half bad, could`ve been worse as well, you know, could`ve blown worse things than a couble of thousand on drinking."
"Yes, i guess, but it`s really becoming strenous to be thinking about my situation now."
"So don`t!"
"Yeah go figure, i like that solution, but i`m quite inept at implementing it."

"Other than that smooth sailing right?"
"Yeah well, there`s a limit to how many detoxes i can run through, but we`re back at the gym tomorrow, we`re writing a bit, and we`ve done a marathon cleaning and lecture-listening session today."
"Should`ve been at that meeting, though."
"Yeah, but they`ll let me live."
"Other than that post/pre-sleep psychosis is back in style, and my brain has the practice needed to be quite the contender."
"Yeah, why train it to be still when you could train it to be hyperactive?"
"Besides the obvious problems of maintaining defined structures in the face of incredible mental ...."
"yeah, besides those. WEll besides those problems there aren`t many things to be said, those problems are nice and entertaining and potentially very gainful somewhat dependent upon what you allew to constitute a hindrance in your life."
"You know i define pretty much everything ashindrances and nothing as graspable opportunities, right?"
"Yes, it has been noticed. But as a system with a propensity for the construction and the analysis of personal negative maximals then you ain`t half bad."
"I doubt that, pretty much rubbish at that as well."
"Take joy in the little things. Your Dvorak is pretty fast by now!"
"Yeah, who`d a thunk it, regular exercise, right."
"Regular exercise, boyo, and slow, slow steps. And more patience than most microtransaction-algorithms could possibly possess."
"Yeah, aren`t we glad we`re not in it for the short term?"
"We are, but it wouldn`t fucking hurt to have a viable strategy for the long term either, regardless of how self-satisfied we are with our belief in our own noble shying away from short term profit."
"So, viable strategy for the long term."
"You`re not gonna do one now are you?"
"Nope, haven`t got one, what do you expect?"