Longtimes.

So. I own a house now. That wasn't expected. But it is kind of amusing, so i will enjoy it a lot. (Or watch it all come tumbling down over my head in a day or two.) Weird family i have, i guess. And a patient one, at that. Sad fact is, i don't much go for the reckless exposure of myself that i once used to enjoy so much. That is actually really not a good thing, but i don't see how to regain that momentum without being free of anything to lose. And, hey, i don't have much to lose as of right now, but i just can't pose like i used to. This makes me feel more dishonest, so i really think i should do something to jolt myself into expressions of the past. Something with actual drive and engagement instead of bland statements of fact and superfluous commentary. In other news, i really really really really need to not consume these quantities of alcohol... Something does not sit right in the lower parts of my body the following days when i do that. I'd say kidney or liver, but i don't know the front from the back of my body. Other than that. GOt two months to end up in possession of the available position in the kindergarden i'm currently working in. That would be totally sweet, (until the point where everything is ruined by a lack of money that is). But i'm not too optimistic about getting it, they're likely to go for a woman with credentials, or somesuch. Not much to be done about that but to live with that i would have gotten it if they hadn't wanted somebody with those exact qualifications, and that means i'll get one some other place if i want it. (But do i? Yeah probably.) SO yes, i've become boring, risk averse, and full time employed, member of the local union and the labour party. What more can go wrong? But, as i said, As long as i end up somewhere in between outdoorslife, the sciences, creativity and pedadgogy i'm a happy camper. And that is where i am right now, so yaytime!